I had a lovely day yesterday. Thankyou to the three gorgeous friends involved in making it such a special day.
L and I browsed through baby departments and coffee-d and lunched; G and I had coffee and a catch-up, and M left hilariously excited messages and texts until she finally got hold of me.....then she was not pleased with me as I refused to shout and scream down the phone to match her excitement (in my defence I was sitting in the middle of a very quiet restauarant at the time!!!)
During the day yesterday I felt strangely calm and in control, and OK.
Today however....
Fruit Loop City.
Couldn't get to sleep last night despite being exhausted!! I laid there most of the night staring at the ceiling (and at the screen of my Iphone)...wondering who our child is - is she a girl or is he a boy? How old will he/she be? Is he/she awake right now somewhere in China, lying in a cot staring at the ceiling...where in China...what are we going to name him/her....do I need to wash my hair in the morning in case we get "the call" tomorrow...should I get up now and wash my hair just so I'm ready....oooh, look - it's 3am.....
You get the picture....it's not pretty.
My nerves are officially fried. My poor husband.
Possibility of getting "the call" today - 1%...but I'm preparing for it anyway!!!
T xxxx
